Tag Archives: betrayal

Releasing The Flying Monkeys: Balancing Karma & Retribution

This post is a letter I wrote to a very special friend who, though I’ve not yet met in person, I have a very special place in My heart for. She is one of the Shining Stars who pops up in your life just when you need them, whether you know it or not. Because of Her beautiful spirit and Her inspiring gifts, I shared one of My most joyous Life Lessons with Her. In keeping with the what I am creating with Ask Mistress Didi*, I share this post to encourage the brave people who are doing the work to BE Better. I appreciate all of you! And remember to remind your friends that you appreciate them, too!

*****

Dear Ms. Star,

Thank you, as always, for the lovely smiles you send! Other than the disappointing news You wrote about, I hope that life is treating You very well. It is quite the challenge to get past the nefarious actions of people who prove unworthy of Our considerations. So, here’s what I’d like to offer:

I am having an amazing journey! I would like to share this with You because, whether you know it or not, You have been a precious gift to Me in so many, many ways! I respect Your intelligence, integrity, and the beauty You share with The Whole. I believe that souls travel in groups to learn and that We have a special connection. If this is just My fantasy, well, I hope You enjoy reading about My Journey and that You are able to appreciate My revelations in My Truth! However, from Our interactions, I’m sure that what I share will be right on time for You.

My Solar New Year’s Commitment is to BEing true to Myself, Honoring how well I handle My “stuff” (which includes My Sadism, quelling My desires for retribution, and the enjoyments of watching offenders suffer), and to BEING Better. I knew from birth that sometimes what I can think and how I can feel are so intense that they even scare Me! So, I choose to work on that to be a positive contributor to Life on Our planet and in The Universe!

Unlike the vast majority of people, I don’t try to pretend that We don’t all have a duplexity [Genetics – a double-stranded region of DNA] of Sadist and masochist in Our natures. So, because I take responsibility for My nature, My heart, and My Spirit, I have committed My life to balancing My Karma. As a Libra, the duality of My Nature has always been challenging when I’ve based it on society’s rules – which are designed to imprison Us in disenfranchisement.

So, after 2 most recent years of thievery; heartbreak; deaths; sabotage from loved & trusted ones; loss of property, income, business, etc., I recognized how I need to be “able to sleep at night” to attend to My Karma — per My understanding of guidance I received from My audience with His Holiness The Dalai Lama. His Holiness told Me, when I asked about Karma — and referred to Jesus saying to turn the other cheek — that Jesus didn’t say to get beat up; that Karma is whether you can sleep at night – did you take care of yourself? If something in the past tortures you in the present (shoulda-woulda-coulda), it affects/creates your future as moment leads to moment. So, if someone slaps you and you didn’t take care of your needs in the moment for whatever reasons, it is your karma to learn and choose what to do to take care of your well-being from NOW (present) on (future) – even if that is slapping them back (My words; not The Dalai Lama’s!).

I realized that experiencing and expressing My Joy was impeded by My attachments to “other people’s interpretations of right/wrong.” And while I was treating people the way I want to be treated, their lack of self-love and awareness made them comfortable to treat Me like poo-on-a-shoe – down to finding fault with ME for stealing from ME (including betrayal, theft, abusing My kindness, etc.).

So, I wrestled with feeling sorry for them because of the stresses in their lives and all of the other crap that was taught to Me via the sociology-religious slavery doctrines (“conditioning”) that have nothing to do with The Golden Rule, and I found Myself regressing into a major case of “the grumpies.” Because I meditated on My Commitment to BEing Better, it became clear to Me that I was not Living My Truth! And I had that magnificent epiphany of FULLY Accepting MySelf! (Meanwhile, I thought I had accepted Myself a long time ago already…) Life is truly a Journey of Learning About Yourself.

Side Note: Talk about synchronicity: I’m listening to a new mix from one of My DJs and Teddy Pendergrass is singing, “You Can’t Hide From Yourself!”

I KNOW that I am a loving, giving, Goddess Healer (which The Universe has just confirmed with a position as Director of a special, medical-science, research project of My dreams!) and that one of My Purposes on the planet at this time is to be a guide to Happy Wellness. In order for Me to BE in My Purpose, I deserve to “BE Happy & Well in Truth.” And that looks like this:

I am clear on My intentions. Intentions are the root of all creations and define the value of all actions and, Karma itself. Somewhere along My Life, I picked up the belief that I am not to BE “human” with all of My emotions, desires, and thoughts BEing “valid.” I attribute this to My upbringing and special circumstances that defined My childhood and determined My approach to Life (“conditioning,” again). After all the “drama,” I am affirmed that My intentions come from a place of Love – even if others want to believe that when I do something FOR Me that it is against them. I am committed to loving Myself first in order to best love others and contribute to The Whole. This is the basis for “My Religion: SpiritualHedonism™” and how I WANT to BE and live My Life.

I forgive the offenders out loud. I RESPECTFULLY tell them to their faces, write them letters, make videos for them, write public blog posts, whatever works for ME to (1) have completion and (2) make sure that there is absolutely NO way that they do not have the opportunity to accept responsibility for their offenses. I ALWAYS apologize if I have wronged someone who has made Me aware of how they feel offended by My actions that have truly caused them any harm. And I make it a point to make amends (if warranted) and to be more careful in the future. It is the choice of offenders to do what they will do, but the knowledge of what they’ve done cannot be ignored or distorted to avoid their responsibilities for their actions.

I have released My Flying Monkeys! Coming from a Magickal Family, I’ve lived My entire life watching inexplicable things happen to people who offend Us and judging this to be wrongful uses of Our Energies (which may have been true in some cases, but Karma was always in play). I used to do a LOT of work to contain My Energies from directing “accelerated Karma” for all involved — which includes Me. My concern with MY Karma is the sole reason that so many people have not “spontaneously combusted” in one way or another! Now, I’ve removed all interests that I had in place for their protection, etc. No more of My “guardians” and “watchdogs” to safeguard them from the ramifications of their stupidities; they shall suffer their consequences without My generous interventions (which I believe were actually interfering with Karma where My conditioning made Me believe I was “being good” to have such care for those who offend Me).

Now, instead of mistakenly believing that I was enhancing My Good Karma, I’ve come to believe that I was retarding both My and the offenders’ Karmic travels. So, without wishing malice, I wish “accelerated Karma” for all of Us. Knowing My true intentions, I have no fear. I’ve released The Flying Monkeys and Karma is forever in My favor!

I have created I Win-I Win situations. Since I AM accepting My Truth, whatever offenders do, the seeds for Personal Growth have been planted. If they choose to be honorable, they will thrive and continue to have Me for the inspiration, motivation, feel-good-about-themselves-musings that they have taken Me for granted for in the past. However, each and every time they come to Me, I “water the Seeds of Awareness” that I’ve planted. If they choose to be despicable, their behavior is fertilizer for their deserved suffering to exponentially grow as constant reminders of how they’ve offended Me (and others). The offenders will (i) not be able to sleep peacefully, (ii) will actually look haggard to themselves and to others, and (iii) have all of the things that would normally happen via Karma, but which they WILL be aware of the connections to Me no matter how hard they try to ignore My seeds. And I get to watch them suffer from their own devices — provided I care enough to know about them at all! MUAHAHAHAHAAAAA!

I am clear that I do not delight in suffering; I delight in pleasure however one enjoys it without harming another. This is the tenet of My Fetish Lifestyle. And I delight in seeing Karma at work. To better deal with the disappointments of offenders, I consider their actions to be a balance of Karmic Debt so that I am free from past lifetime stuff that brought Us together in this lifetime, and that I will not “suffer” them in subsequent lifetimes. This thinking helps Me to accept a lot of crapazoola that has occurred in My Life and to move forward with Joy!

Best of all, I am free from that wretched feeling of needing retribution. I can BE and am BETTER than that! Karma has My back ~ and My front!

You know how epiphanies work: they can “take a long time coming,” but they are recognized instantaneously! Well, POOF! Puff of Practical Magick and [personal success info omitted to maintain privacy]. THIS is what makes Me KNOW and understand that, although some folks may not be able to understand My Epiphany as I described to You, it is definitely the right thing for Me to do to BE Happy & Well.

And this is why I have shared with You: I hope that My journey of Self-Judgment to an Epiphany of My Truth affirms You in remembering to Honor Your Truth. Our concepts of right and wrong, et al., are based upon the Grand Illusion that enslaves the populace in darkness. We are The Beacons of The Light and We MUST SHINE in Our Unique and Varied Ways. It does not serve Us to judge Our ways based on other people’s agendas; it is Our duty to accept Ourselves in totality to discover Our Truths to choose how We will work powerfully for Ourselves and The Whole.

Thank You for letting Me share My Joy with You, who are always a giver of Joy to Me!

Namaste.

Always MY Pleasure,
The Mistress Didi*
www.PartyDomme.com

*****

If you have a question that has NOT already been addressed, you may Ask Mistress Didi*. Remember your manners…

I’m a Domme, not your mom.

More of The Mistress Didi*s Words of Wisdom

Being a Lifestyle Dominant for Her entire life, The Mistress Didi* has explored various aspects of the BDSM and D/s Scenes including 24/7 relationships, slave ownership, Professional Domination (before it became synonymous with “hoochies with whips“) and Fetish Event Planning. The Mistress Didi* has benefited from an extensive education in the functions of the human body and psyche, holds a Master’s Degree in Rehabilitation Therapy and is currently working on Her PhD.

Dealing With Disappointing People

SPECIAL Opportunites: Check out My Newsletter!

November 11, 2014

Note: I receive numerous correspondence (yes, grammartically correct) about people who betray Our Trust and Friendship – especially since a person who considered herself a professional Domme and “My” best friend outted My submissive in a public venue (causing him child custody problems) and continues a claim-to-fame by using My name… yawn. Glad I don’t have her Karma ahead! This entry is advice that helps to put your perspective where it belongs: On Your Greatness.

~~~~~~~~~

I’d like to offer these Gems that I’ve learned the hard way (but that’s what makes them Diamonds – to use a metaphor!):

Someone wrote to Me:

I realize that I have been making myself wrong for feeling “ugly” towards certain people. I take on the responsibility for things that happen even when I am not the reason things happened the way they did… I am not powerful enough to be the cause of everything that happens between me and others in my life.

Actually, We ARE that powerful, but not in the sense of perceiving cause-and-effect in such black-and-white terms. I’ve learned that Free Will is also not so simple and that most people make choices based on FEAR (False Experiences Appearing Real) and FEAR lives strongest in the subconscious mind.

The thing about the subconscious mind is that We must practice Awareness in order to be free of FEAR and evolve to Being Better. This is an extremely scary, and often, difficult thing to do which is why most people spend time finding fault to blame others rather than looking at what motivates their actions to do so.

In this age of information overload, the impulse to be distracted seduces the “lesser mind” – hence the inundation of UGLY amusements – e.g., the fake “reality TV” shows where the most banal behaviors are “entertainment.” And people wonder why their children are so abominably behaved when the constant input into their own and their children’s conscious and subconscious brains is nothing but degrading negativity.

We cannot escape it; We can only strengthen Our SELVES to DEFLECT it.

Now, here’s where those of Us who practice Awareness get tripped up: We judge Our valid feelings.

We have the right to feel hurt, betrayed, etc. when people disappoint Us. But here’s the thing:

We are not wrong for trusting someone at their word; they FAILED to live up to it. Your word is ALL You have, You are. Your Word is Your Power – every religious and wisdom doctrine and philosophy says so. For example,

John 1:1
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

— Please note that I am not a Bible-thumper; I use whatever wisdom is available to help Us connect on Our Highest Levels. I believe that this is the whole point of having all of these wisdom sources available to Us.

When people disappoint Us, they are giving Us GIFTS to:

~ see their true worth and to re-categorize their value in Our lives from this point forward. My Mantra: I love you for who you were in My Life and I release you for who you choose to be.

~ see the opportunities for Our growth and the variety of choices We HAVE to commit and re-commit to BEing Our Best

~ practice DETACHMENT, which is not ,”NOT caring” – it’s caring more for Yourself to maintain Your Wellness. Forgiveness is the Key – and forgiveness is not forgetting or saying that it’s OK that they were poopheads. Forgiveness is FOR You to be free of torturing Yourself for their failures. Forgiveness is also so that You don’t get wrinkles and frown lines!

The situation itself IS WHAT IT IS. EVERYTHING else is Our judgment of it. I know, that tight grip right in the heart-solar-plexus area kicks in. But right there is the best indication that LETTING GO is required. We have to LET GO of Our woulda-coulda-shoulda habits and expand Our Awareness for what We can do and BE Better.

We also have to be kinder to Ourselves and permit Ourselves to have the full spectrum of the human experience on this Earth plane at this time. We can only do that by releasing preconceived notions of what a situation should be (ego) – including Our feelings – and allow Ourselves to respond from conscious choice rather than to react from FEAR (False Experiences Appearing Real = expectation).

This is why meditation is NECESSARY to BE Our Bests. We need to fortify Our SELVES in order to deflect the ridiculousness and stay focused on Our Truth. I like to envision wearing a suit of glorious armor made of mirrors when dealing with knuckleheads. I let their negative energy be reflected back to them to see their true selves and be inspired to evolve.

Also, by considering offensive behaviors and people as giving Me gifts makes them useful – which is always easier to deal with them accordingly.

So, We ARE that powerful and the power is to recognize that their failure is NOT Our doing: It could not have been any other way than the way it was.

Our power comes from consciously choosing Our next steps from a place of Self-Love, which does not preclude love for those who have offended Us. We can choose HOW to love them – which, in My case, usually means cutting them out of My life completely so that no one ends up dead or in jail! Ha!

Karma is a fabulous thing: people cannot escape their Truth, no matter how hard they try. They just delay the inevitable. And when they must face their Truth, they always come back... And that’s the best part because I’m a Sadist Who, while I forgave them a long time ago, I don’t let them have the comfort that they came to Me to feel forgiven for their offenses against Me. Their guilt is their problem and their Karma. MUAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!!!

Always MY Pleasure,
Mss Didi*
www.PartyDomme.com

*****

If you have a question that has NOT already been addressed, you may Ask Mss Didi*. Remember your manners…

I’m a Domme, not your mom.

More of Mss Didi*s Words of Wisdom

Being a Lifestyle Dominant for Her entire life, Mss Didi* has explored various aspects of the BDSM and D/s Scenes including 24/7 relationships, slave ownership, Professional Domination (before it became synonymous with “hoochies with whips“) and Fetish Event Planning. Mss Didi* has benefited from an extensive education in the functions of the human body and psyche, holds a Master’s Degree in Rehabilitation Therapy and is currently working on Her PhD. As well as being the Founder of The Fetish League, Mss Didi* is a Model, Speaker, Author, Fetish Facilitator, Certified Hypnotherapist, Certified Psychotherapist, Certified Nutritionist, Certified Aromatherapist, and a graduate of The Institute of Culinary Arts with a specialty in vegetarian cooking. In Her* quest to change the public’s negative view of Fetish to a positive understanding of Fetish as Therapeutic Art, Mss Didi* promotes Fetish Appreciation through Her workshops, performances, and ClassicFetish™ Events. She* believes that the goal of the Dominant-submissive relationship is self-evolution for both to grow towards becoming the best that W/we can be as individuals, to each other, and to The Whole.

How To Deal With Relationship Gossip

June 30, 2011

Q: Dear Mistress Didi,

I recently broke up with someone in The Scene. The problem is that where I live, the community is very small and everyone knows each other. Last weekend, there was a party and when I arrived, people had been talking about us and tried to get me to say what was wrong with him. What bothers me most is that the people who approached me were not even people who were ever friendly to me in the past. I felt very uncomfortable and left the party very early because I didn’t want to discuss our personal business with nosy people. Since this is where I normally socialize, how do I handle them trying to be in my business? And how do I keep my ex from talking about me to them? Thank You, Miss Private

Dear Miss Private,

It is difficult to take the high road with low-lives. However, that is My advice. The most important thing you have is your reputation. You and your ex know the truth, so no matter what anyone else chooses to think or say, your best defense is a strong offense.

Defuse the situation as soon as it presents itself. The moment someone begins prying into your personal business, and especially if they try to get you to speak ill of your ex:

1) Put your hand up with a gentle “stop” motion. This speaks to the unconscious mind and helps to reinforce what you say to them on a conscious level. Keep your hand near your own body – do not extend it into or near their space because this action will be perceived as invasive (even thought they are invading your space). Then withdraw your hand into your own body and bring it to rest, which reinforces that you are taking responsibility both to your own and to observers’ subconscious minds;

2) Be very kind, gentle, and direct as you take personal responsibility by saying something like, “It would not be polite or fair to [your ex] or to me to break the trust of our privacy.”

a) Taking personal responsibility does not overtly make the nosy people wrong and prevents egotistical defenses (unless you are dealing with a complete moron);

b) Maintaining a non-confrontational attitude alleviates you from being perceived as defensive; and

c) If they push the issue further, they will expose themselves to be nosy gossips, which they most likely do not want to do.

3) Immediately turn the topic of conversation on to the questioner – complimenting them in some way works best. People like nothing better than to talk about themselves. Complimenting attire or asking about something you know they are proud of or feel good about quickly takes the attention off of you and your business.

There will always be circumstances where you may have to do more work to get rid of a space invader. Some other tips I recommend are:

“Excuse me, costume malfunction!” and walk away.
Asking them why they want to know and then stating that you wouldn’t want them to be accused of gossiping so you will take responsibility to change the subject.
If you’re anything like Me, just say, “It’s none of your business.” I usually do it ever so sweetly, with a lovely smile on My face, and jokingly as if their intention was to be humorous instead of nosy.

The goal is to maintain your dignity while refusing to divulge your personal and private information.

Should you encounter a situation where an offender will actually claim that your ex is saying crappy things about you, take the high road again with compassion. “I am sorry to hear that he is so devastated that he has to tell such stories! How pitiful.” And walk away. Walk away from that kind of offender because they are intent on disrupting your peace and looking for some kind of confrontation. I have actually had a situation where such an offender decided to follow Me around to badger information from Me, so I chose a very, highly-visible area where people observed Me say, “Now I know why people say you’re a nosy gossip.” And I walked away again. It was unfortunate, but necessary, that I had to embarrass this dreadful creature.

You cannot stop your ex or other people from saying things. The best approach is to make it a point to be observed being amused by the situation with a no-care attitude. And don’t be a drama-queen when you do it. Gossips and low-lives can only thrive if they disrupt your peace. If you present yourself as if you don’t care, you disrupt their feeding frenzy and they will soon latch onto someone else. If you really let go and don’t care about negative behavior, you free yourself to receive better things.

You may also want to read My blog post on what I call “gruesomes” as you seem to be surrounded by them and they’re everywhere… Always MY Pleasure,
Mss Didi*
www.PartyDomme.com

*****

If you have a question that has NOT already been addressed, you may Ask Mss Didi*. Remember your manners…

I’m a Domme, not your mom.

More of Mss Didi*s Words of Wisdom

Related articles:

SPECIAL Opportunites: Check out My Newsletter!

We cannot escape it; We can only strengthen Our SELVES to DEFLECT it.

Related articles:

Related articles: